Birthday : Missing my Dad πŸ’” No words,I actually feel so depressed

Hmmn!!!
   Hey guys I'm a bit emotional today, okay ever since I lost my daddy last year July,the 19th. Life hasn't been the same. I'm just leaving each day as it comes, hoping things gets better. I'm sorry, how have y'all been? trust y'all are doing great? Hopefully one day I get a comment. I'm kinda tired of being in my world 😁, I'd like actual humans to interact with me.
     Okay!!! Back to the matter, I lost my dad to diabetes and pakinston diseases. Unfortunately for us, we come from a systemless country that has no respect for the lives of it's people's. Prior to this, he had a breakdown and we rushed him to the hospital, guys he was rejected in about seven hospitals ( mind you, this was during the lockdown). I felt so bad and saw the weakness in his eyes, oh I miss him so much. Guy's he was unarguably the sweetest man alive, the best girl dad, seeing him unavailable actually hurt. Long story cut short, he died in my very eyes and it's took me back to drums of memories. Gosh!!! I love you so much Daddy. I miss you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
     Oh Lord!!! It's so painful, this man really suffered for us, I'm broken he didn't get to reap his fruit's, not one.  I'm sorry Im being to mushy anyways his birthday this year, May 10 was so hurting!!! Couldn't believe it is first post humous birthday. I just sometimes ask myself why I was created, what's the purpose of life, death, series of questions!!! I pray the Lord heals me...
 Can't compose myself to write guys, I'm tired of crying, I hope I gather momentum when next I'm talking about my daddy. I'd love to know how you cope about the death of your loved ones.
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My labor experience, I thought I wouldn't make it!!! Thank Jesus

Hey guys!!! It's been a long long time of being unavailable... Apologies πŸ™πŸΏπŸ™πŸΏπŸ™πŸΏ, a lot has really being on my plate. Trust y'all are pushing it in this hard times? The Lord will see us through. AMEN.
  A quick one, as a child I use to imagine growing up was the ultimate GOAL. Like I imagine going to college, hooking up to one hot dude, getting engaged and married in the Cinderella style. LMAO!!! 🀣🀣🀣🀣🀣 I was really a JOKE oo. Not to mention giving birth to gorgeous children EASILY. Mehn life thus happen!!! Today I'd love to share my labor story with y'all,  Hopefully you get to share yours and interact. Hmmn!!! 
 Where do I even start from, Okay, I went to the hospital on April 10th, 
P.S- I had gone there earlier that week cos I was already 40 weeks pregnant and no labor sign. Thus, I was admitted to be induced. Was so scared cos I heard about serval painful experiences on YouTube on people who were induced to labor. I thought mine wasn't gonna be that tough cos I was good at bearing menstrual cramps. Hehehe 🀣🀣🀣🀣🀣🀣 I laugh in Mandarin. Few minutes to 5am they started the process, though I was strong as ever, praying and hoping on God, as a new mom to be. Around 2pm they came and inserted the remaining drug in my v**** , was feeling a little down 40 minutes after this and then frequently I saw a little clot of blood. My mom and my sister were present at this time, my hubby wasn't around, I really thank God they came through,I SO needed the support. Thankful for family!!!
Around 3:30pm , guys, it was though a bit had removed from my head, I was in painnnnnn, severed pain, but was trying to keep that STRONG WOMAN attitude 🀦🏿‍♀️🌚🌚 SMH!!!!
  This time I didn't even check the time cos your girl was having a badass torture, jeez!!!! In my whole life, I have never,I mean NEVER seen a pain like this. It was at this point I became dramatic, I literally removed my clothes, was working naked in the hospital, rolled in the floor with my V open ( I just wanted the baby to come out) I screamed the building down!!! Ever soul present there could hear my thunderous voice. Mama and my Sis were praying. The doctors came to check if the diameter had progressed, as they were about inserting their hands, I closed my laps, pain was tooooo deep!!! Gosh
Was trying to shit my baby out but they kept saying it's dangerous, at this point I couldn't take it, I told them they should prepare me for Ceasaran section (CS) . As they were about getting the theatre ready my water broke and I had to lay down to push!!! Gosh.... Was waiting to hear the golden word PUSH, just like I see it in movies 😁😁😁 . Immediately I heard it, guy's your girl pushed the hell out like never before, I didn't even listen, ion know how many times I tried but my baby girl came out. I never felt that much relief in my LIFE!!!! Me that was at loggerheads with the nurses. Jeeez!!! 
  Afterwards they discovered I had cervical tear and Vaginal tear, they stitched me up and I left to have my bathe. My mom and sister were in awe πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί like finally. My sister had me recorded the whole time, I was really acting gaaga!!! I smile in fulfilment, like she was worth it, my baby Zi. 
 After this experience, I knelt down to apologise to my mama, if I never appreciated her , I owe her happiness all the days of her life. Look what she went through for me, for us (8). 
 Respect to all mother's you are the real MVP!!!! God bless you all.
  So guy's do well to comment, let's discuss. Wishing you a beautiful week ahead. Love you, ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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