Hello amazing people, hope your week wasn't too stressful? Mine was exhausting but hey weekend got me smiling ☺️. So today I'd like to celebrate you all for being ALIVE despite the storms that life approached US with. You rock, I hope this vibe doesn't die π
A quick one todayπ
At some point in my life I felt I was CURSED, everything seemed HOPELESS, I'd cry myself to sleep, I hated having people around, Oh!!! I felt I wasn't good enough to be alive, like I was a mistake, poor grades at school, nothing interest me, not love, sex, family. Inshort I was in great debts and got embarrassment on daily basis . Worst part was whenever I wanted to offer a service online, I was declined because I'm from a third-world African Country. Damn! I fucking didn't chose this LIFE , FAMILY, STATUS or NATIONALITY
I just wanted a NORMAL LIFE!!!! where I could afford to pay my bills, be comfortable and happy .Since all this seemed impossible, SELF-PITY became my BEST FRIEND π. At this stage, I lost my self esteem, shiit!! I envied successful people, didn't care about my looks ,I was extremely TOXIC and bitter!!!!!!!!!!!!, I believed God was wicked, maybe he had his own favorites well I just wasn't, you know I sought for rehabs, Lol I was too broke to afford any drugs, so I just wanted my space, TONS of people I loved all backstabbed me even to the point where my appearance disgusted them terribly
Mehn!!! If you have been here and still pushing, you are GOALS π. I was sick and broken, I felt betrayed,used,fooled , name it , anything depressing
Four days after or one week can't recall, sometime in July, The death of a family friend just triggered ME to end this once and for all. I tried taking poison , I was scared to die but I felt it was the best choice, Iollll I wanted to but nigga's coward mind won't let herπ
Fast forward to Five months after, I'm grateful I didn't take that step. The journey was rough but it's didn't kill me. I found out that I'm the reason why I wanted to commit suicide. If SUICIDE were a person or situation do you think he/she would kill himself just so you can REST!!! Hell no, he won't, that's why his instilling it in YOU. Suicide glows because we give it's STRENGTH from our THOUGHTS and pamper it with EMPATHY.
Problems and challenges are spices of life, however some have it RAW( peppery and salty) and others have a taste of it ,all in their different times with the lesson of EXPERIENCE . Take a look at yourself, why do you feel you ain't worth it, you're broke?, you're been diagnosed with kidney failure or other health related issues ?? your truamatised, homeless, Jobless, heart-broken,Divorce, paralyzed, obesed , in an unhealthy relationship, failed in a lot of businesses, lonely, handicapped, drug addict , feel inferior ,depressed, you got duped,raped, abused or deserted ? The list is endless π
All this doesn't WORTH you taking your PRECIOUS life, remember it's doesn't solve the problem, you only RAN away from your RESPONSIBILITY. Brace up, be strong and positive, Life is an attitude,take the right attitude towards your happiness, stop being a mediocre welcome CONTENTMENT. Life is TOO short to be unhappy, if LIFE could be bought oh!!! The world will merry at every given situation.
Why then place your problem above your joy and happiness. Hey !!!! Wake up the world we are is a battle ground, nobody sleeps in the battlefield. STAND UP against all vices. If you are in a toxic relationship please catwalk out of it. Your joy is paramount to EVERYTHING. You are special, you are your god, you deserve too be happy . Do you know some people would give anything to have your legs, hands,sight,spine,heart,liver,kidney , body, freedom, name it even YOUR LIFE. See you are a great ASSET place VALUE and appreciate your self more, be around positive people, be driven, work well, think less,pray more,glow in optimism and more importantly say sweet words to yourself every single minute, make it an habit.
Welcome to a new phase of your life, be your best version πππ
Talk to Keren, I care